My 51st birthday, 2035

Monday, 10/ 29/ 35. 6:10 AM

Father,

Thank you for your provision in this day. You are good and faithful to me, beyond my most minute understanding. TO the praise and glory of your name, take this day and use it for the coming of your kingdom. You are the Rock…and Alpha and Omega…the Great I AM. Thank you for revealing yourself to me through the person of your Son Jesus Christ some 30 years ago. You are so kind to me, to befriend in my time of need and desperation. Please continue teaching me in my next 30 years, that I might be used as an instrument of righteousness and peace.
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Coffee’s black this morning, a shinny swirl of oil illuminating at the top… a swirl speaking the depths of eternity.

Had trouble waking up this morning after the weekend. Alarm went off at 5:45, but I snoozed until 6. Haven’t been sleeping very well, just thinking a lot about home/ people there, namely my dad. I hope to escape away for a weekend, maybe to take my son or someone close to me to fly out and visit.

Not to mention that running after the kids lately has been exhausting—I feel like it’s been a priority for me to continue forward with the parents on the soccer team especially. There’s this younger couple who are related to one of my old club kids from the high school I led at after leaving graduate school/ early in marriage—it’s just fun to see ever more clearly the depth of God’s intentionality toward me. It’s almost like He’s trying to prove that He’s been faithful to me in the deepest parts of my being, even since before I knew He was! It’s fun praying for them and their son, as I just keep asking for that same faithfulness, love, and renewed knowledge of His grace to daily invade their consciousness. More than just “faithful,” though—actually working out all that I am and forever will be as His son. I’m grateful for this, as I know that it forces me to be humble before the Lord in my circumstances. Honestly, I’ve just been praying for emotion/ passion behind pursuing relationships these days, as I don’t exactly see what direction I should go in. I’m thankful for the position God has placed me in with the people around me now.

Finding it hard to be faithful in prayer for the brothers, though—usually keep lifting up my family and the Whoppaheads, leaving little room for others to come through. I want to keep thinking generationally with my prayers, feeling burdened to really ask for God’s kingdom to come and His will to be done. What a deadly thought, to ask for my own doom!

“He must become greater, I must become less.” (John 3:30)


Please let my wife know that she is loved today. Confront her with all that she is in Jesus Christ.

Let my morning interactions with my children be holy, even if I simply look them in the eyes. May they truly know that your heart for them is that they know you and glorify you in thought, word, and deed.

Father, let your kingdom come today in the lives of the brothers… even as their names and faces flow through my mind, count this as my intercession for them. As hard as it’s been to be near them lately, please impress on them this day that they are loved by me…by you.

To the glory and praise of your name, God—thank you for this morning. May cereal breakfast with my rushing family be a manifestation of your rushing Spirit through our lives!

Amen…